Small Thought of the Day: Teenage Life

I like the progression and not knowing anything during my life period of 18-21 years old. They are my mindless fun silly years. :)

"the only experience that you will regret are the ones you've never had..."

Today's Deep Thought: Sunyi Sepi

Memandangkan entri blog yang sebelum ini dah janji nak tulis dalam Bahasa Melayu, maka, dengan ini janji di kotakan. ***hmmm... I'm not sure if this is a good idea to write an entry in Malay. But to honour Bahasa Ibunda, so I guess I should give a try.. :)) ***

Bermulanya hari ini adalah tidak seperti kebiasaannya.. Tidak ke kolam renang untuk beriadah dan tidak bersenam seperti biasa. Tidak bersarapan waima membancuh secawan teh. ***it took me 5 minutes to reconstruc those words to a proper phrases, but yeah... I guess I should give another try even tho it would take a longer time to write anything.*****

Lambat bangun tidur hari ini disebabkan terlalu banyak berfikir dan bermusahabah diri mengenai peristiwa semalam. Seperti biasa, malam sabtu bukanlah malam yang Fairuz akan berada di bilik. Kebiasaannya, Fairuz akan keluar bersiar siar atau mengukur jalan (istilah yang digunakan untuk aktiviti merayau rayau)....

Okay. I can't continue anymore in Malay. Lets try in bahasa negeri sembilan.

Smalam den kluar ngan duo orang anak dagho. Cam biaso, dek sojuk ngan snow yang turun lobek tak bronti, kami bertigo melepak kek McDonalds. Banyak bona bondo yang dibincang an. Sampai poning kepalo den nak proses sumo data data yang disampai an. Den ngaku yang den ni agak slow dalam memorizing info info yang disampai an. Tapi bilo bercerito pasal cinto dan hubungan rapat lelaki pompuan, ado beberapo perkaro yang buek hati den tersentak dan sodar diri.

Responsibility? Special?

Dan topik topik yang di bincang an membuek an den ghaso sunyi pulak. Walaupun den dikelilingi oleh ramai kawan, totap den ghaso sunyi. Tadi maso kenduri budak KPMM, teghaso yo inferior sobab eh, sumo orang ado girlfriend. Den sorang yo bujang tak sudah. Bilo Rapek cakap bukan eh takdo orang sayang, tapi den tu yang tak pandai jago relationship. Mungkin ado boto yo apo yang di khoba an den kawan baik den tu. Sobab eh, den tak layan secaro SPECIAL kek orang yang patut den layan special.

Life is just a series of metamorphosis.. All of us will keep on changing to be a better man. And for now, this is the right time for me to change. Even tho its a bit late, I guess its better late than never.

I made a promise to myself. I will treat my next love with a special treatment, special care and special attention. Everything will be so special... Maybe its too much to promise as such, but I'll try my best.

There's more to write, but yeah... I guess its better if I keep it to myself and share it with that special someone. Siapa? Allah Maha Mengetahui.

Today's Not So Deep Thought - Honesty

HONESTY, what a rare commodity for today’s existence. I’m not saying that there’s no one left with this great personal value, but it is very hard to find them. I myself cannot claim this as part of me. Coz, basically, I’m just a typical guy with lots of flaws here and there… Practically, nobody is perfect.

Okay. Let’s talk about something else. There’s nothing much to talk about honesty.

Nowadays, I’m kinda attached to a novel. Hahaha… I’ll try to describe this as manly as possible. The book that currently I’m reading is HIKAYAT TARI TERUNA JAYA a.k.a True Believer by Nicholas Spark. A very romantic love novel that made me smiles all the way dari pagi sampai petang. Dalam metro. Dalam lecture hall. And probably it will make me smile even more for the next few days… I’m up to 3/5 of the whole novel. Remarkable. That’s all I can say. Hopefully dapat habiskan by Friday or Saturday.

Hmmm… My brain is kinda slow tonight. Dunno what else to write. I should have gone swimming today… But my stomach is way too full… Thanks to Raihan and Tikah for the nasi lemak. Seriously I’d recommend their catering service to everyone. I took a month catering service in advance since I guess a bujang like me deserve a homemade food for dinner every night. Kinda muak makan luar dah…

Okay… my brain dah jammed. Satu ayat pun tak dapat fikir.. Sambung lain kali.

***kena berlatih tulis dalam bahasa Melayu lepas ni***

Today's Deep Thought II - Relationship

I know it's a bit late tonight to start blogging about anything... But I can't resist the temptation to write something. Before I start, I’d like to let the whole world to know that I LOVE MY FAMILY SO MUCH… Even if the universe could give me all the gold and the diamonds that they could possibly grasps and try to exchange them with my family, not by a single chance I’d look at that offer…

So, tonight, I feel like I want to write something about relationship…

First of all, I simply couldn’t understand why I can’t love anyone else as much as I do towards my family. I did try it on my previous relationship with Nurul Aishah, but it didn’t work out as smooth as I’d thought it would be… There’s always something like a barrier that blocked me from loving someone as much as I could possibly give. But yeah, at least I tried. Maybe Allah have a better plan for me as He stopped me from giving myself 100% to anyone while I’m not ready...

For now, most of the girls that I met ever since I moved to the hostel, I’d assume they’re just like my little sister. Most of them even sebaya with my two little princesses. I tend to treasure friendship and the bond that build up as a family more than having the tendency from loving them as a special partner. You name it, all of them, I have no intention to pikat them or treat them as girlfriend. It’s more like a brother and sister relationship. But I hope none of them misled my intention since they might think that I’m flirting and trying to hit on them…

Some of the girls would love to hear this, assuming that perhaps I expect too much from a girl to be my girlfriend… No. Basically I don’t. I prefer simple girl with a simple life. She doesn’t have to be a supermodel or extraordinary slim, or having a beautiful glowing skin and blue eyes, or anything close to that… She doesn’t have to try too hard on anything. Laid-back, that’s the word. I just need a simple girl… Yeah, Malay, or Chinese or a Russian girl with a decent attitude and a broad minded thinking would do that… I’m not sure if that’s too much to ask… And one more thing, I’m a 100% monogamous type of guy… ***hahaha… I don’t know what monogamous has to do with all this, but I feel like to write them down***

Perhaps I should avoid from writing anything about relationship for now… Maybe I’m not ready to settle down with a stable girlfriend yet... For now, I really am, enjoying my bujang life to the max… As if the world is mine and I could share it with everyone else…

Mohd Fairuz Anuar
Moscow

Rumah Kecik

For the past 5 days, I felt quite a lot of mixed feelings of cheerfully happy, heartbreaking, sad, overexcited, and satisfied. At first, I was utterly happy for my beloved little princess, as she’s enlisted for the JPA Scholarship interview next week. By the way, I just realized why my dad called her “Wadud” instead of Dhuha. “Wadud” itself means The Loving One, and that suits her in every single aspect since she’s very adorable and lovely young lady. Owh… Just by typing these words, made me rindu Rumah Kecik so badly… I wish I could fly back to Malaysia tonight instead of waiting till next July to get together as a family again… The name Rumah Kecik was given by my younger brother referring to our home before it was renovated 15 years ago. But we keep on calling our house as Rumah Kecik till now.

I received a short SMS from my younger brother on Thursday morning saying that our neighbor Zaid Bachok passed away that morning. He was my childhood buddy and we grew up together. Such a good fella. Cheerful, activist and warm hearted. He helped my mom while I wasn’t around. Basically he helped a lot of families on computer stuff. Everyone in our small housing community knew him well, referring him as the “Internet Guy”. Both of us even went on a crash course in “Computer Maintenance and Repair” for 5 days in Batu Pahat right after my PMR. He planned to open a free cybercafé for our community but due to insufficient fund, the plan was abandoned. And for now, I’m pretty sure that Allah loves him more than anyone else. Al-fatihah to Zaid Bachok. May Allah bless his soul.

As for yesterday, the two girls and I were supposed to watch a ballet. Giselle. The tickets for students were sold out. But it was okay. Perhaps it was not our luck. Maybe next month we shall watch another ballet. Despite the fact that we didn’t get the ticket, it doesn’t ruin our night out since Moscow is like the second Paris to me. The city of entertainment. There are so many places to go. I simply couldn’t understand why some students can’t enjoy their time here… Come on… After all these years, can’t you see the beauty of this place after the language barrier was broken??? But yeah, perhaps it’s me being the too open minded and positive about Moscow. Until now, I can’t find a single reason why I must not enjoy my time while being here… Maybe I’m just too out-going and knew this city too much. Enjoy the moment while it last. That’s my line. I just made that up. ***hahaha… Another crap shit of words. Okay, fair enough. But you can’t blame a guy for trying…***

And today, finally it’s Friday. Received the zachut for the Akusherstvo (O&G) cycle. Two and a half weeks of learning nothing. I should have paid more attention during the lectures and classes. But who cares anyways… By the way, speaking of which, for the whole cycle I’ve been holding the thick pink colored O&G book on my hand since it is too big to put it inside my sling bag. I received quite a lot of positive and negative gestures from the ladies. The devushki tend to be more subtle and friendlier than expected while the babushki more a less seems like don’t want me to be their O&G doctor. It was like they wanted to say something like “you MONSTER!!! Stay away from me” on my face but yeah… again, who cares… Maybe they thought I’m too young and playful to handle their problems…

That’s it for now I guess. Too many stuff running through my mind, but I simply don’t know how to put those into words… Perhaps I should continue next time. As for tomorrow, the Interbatch games will make me busy for the whole day since I’m the Organizer for the Netball Games and on-duty person to watch over the RMSA Stall. We’re selling 100Plus tomorrow…


Mohd Fairuz Anuar,
RSMU, Moscow.

Delightful Morning

Finally, it’s Sunday. A bit tired since yesterday. Went out and bought something that reminds me of my mom’s favourite flower; bunga cempaka. =) Thanks to both of you girls… But yeah, this Hyacinths smells pretty much of the bunga cempaka… I bought the baby plant so that I can wait till it blooms. I could have bought the half matured flower and it smells good too, but I guess better if I wait sometime and enjoy watching this flower to bloom. It’s not the result that count, but the process itself. Maybe that’s me… I enjoy more in the thrill of doing stuff instead of the end result. ***what a crap shit I’m writing here… but who cares, as if there’s anyone going to read this… hahaha… this is like my personal diary. Only it’s online and referred as a blog***

Okay. Summary of my “quite okay” weekend…

Saturday:

Swimming, shopping with the two girls, bought a pot and a flower, and RFL final.

Sunday:

Again, swimming while others sleeping… I woke up early today. Checking what’s new on the net. Had a lunch out with friends, came home and here I am at 5. Writing something that I shouldn’t tell the world what I’ve done today… hahaha.. Btw, I broke my old record in swimming. Satisfied!!!

I guess next time I should write a little bit longer… ;P

But perhaps it’s just another lazy Sunday that I should enjoy doing nothing…

This Happy Feeling

What a day. Perhaps, this particular day is so special that made me so motivated to write something about it. I don't even know myself what made it so special. I don’t think it has anything to do with the day-off that I had due to the Pirogov’s Day. Nikolay Ivanovich Pirogov (Никола́й Ива́нович Пирого́в), the Founding Father of my university. All I know is that, my cheerful heart of mine deserve this happy warm sensation.

Okay, I woke up a bit late today. Dog tired of my swimming workout I had yesterday. 90 minutes of nonstop workout in the Olympic size swimming pool. I’m not a good swimmer though. But yeah… I knew some easy technique and tricks. At first, I was planning to go easy on it. But in the end, I swam all the way from one end to the other in one breath. Not an easy task for me. Proud. That’s all I can say. I quit smoking for a reason. And yeah, recreational swimming is a good way to relax, while enjoying a full-body workout.

Let’s get back on the topic. About today. The day that I felt so content and until now, I can’t figure it out yet, what made it so special? Let’s re-examine the day. I woke up at 10. Made some easy breakfast. Flickring, Facebooking, checking my financial shares portfolio, read some news, took a shower and did some easy body exercises. Watched an old, sentimental, black and white movie (owhh I love pre-war American cinematography so much!!!) Later, I put on loud house music while reading a novel and then I went out for a coffee. Came home by 8 and that was it. Nothing particular yet it made me so happy.

Was it the music, the weather, or the warm sensation that I felt? I don’t know. Perhaps, it was the movie. Possibly it was just my lazy Thursday day-off…

Tomorrow can wait. I don't want this day to end. Today has been amazing!!!

Today's Deep Thought

This is my first entry for my new blog. I figured it was quite difficult to maintain the old blog since I'm not talented enough to write anything about religion.. And my religious view might leads to a lot of misunderstanding to many Muslims. Perhaps, it's better off to write down more on life for my life is too short to enjoy everything that the mother nature has to offer...

As for today, I slept at 6 in the evening and woke up way earlier than expected and it's a bit unusual of me to sleep less than 8 hours a day.. But perhaps there's always an exception in everything... I've no plan or intention to roll back to bed after Shushien's birthday party in her room.. As for me, 18th March will always be the day to remember the old man of mine. My truly loving and caring dad.. Despite the fact that he's not here anymore, his legacy of LOVE, TOLERANT, PATIENCE and COURTESY shall I continue forever.. May Allah bless his soul and place him among His beloved...

To cut things short, I'd like to list numerous things that by hook or by crook I must do before the age of 30 or before I end my bachelor's life for a happy marriage... Speaking of Love and Marriage... One thing is certain about me.. I NEVER USE THE L-WORD FOR NOTHING. Those who knew me well could notice that I only used that word once and it end up and turned out bad.. I was crushed, broken and burnt in the end of the relationship. It was an expensive mistake but yeah... I was too young for love during that time. Lesson learned.

Okay. Here's the list. Later on, there's might be changes, but for now, this is it:

1. Join the four wheel drive adventurous team to explore the South East Asia's Continent. At least, I'll buy my own land rover and drive all the way from Johor to Cambodia and Vietnam.. Off-road experience.

2. Climb the Mount Kinabalu in Sabah, Mount Ledang in Johor and Mount Datuk in Negri Sembilan.

3. Participate in the World Scout Jamboree.. The 22nd Jamboree will be held Rinkaby, Sweden in 2011, while the 23rd Jamboree will be in Kirarahama, Japan (perhaps 2015). I'll attend both if I could afford it.

4. Build an astronomical dome on top of my house which complete with Elecronic and GPS Navigation system telescope.

5. Visit Africa particularly to Cape Town, Ghana, and Casablanca.

6. Master in photography.

7. Learn on how to play piano.

8. Ride on a hot air ballon. Traveling here and there for a few days.

9. Speak french and mandarin.

10. I must encounter my fear on roller-coaster ride. Lets ride on the most extreme!!!

11. Marlin Fishing and joining Yan's Taman Negara fishing trip.

12. to be continued....