Today's Deep Thought II - Relationship

I know it's a bit late tonight to start blogging about anything... But I can't resist the temptation to write something. Before I start, I’d like to let the whole world to know that I LOVE MY FAMILY SO MUCH… Even if the universe could give me all the gold and the diamonds that they could possibly grasps and try to exchange them with my family, not by a single chance I’d look at that offer…

So, tonight, I feel like I want to write something about relationship…

First of all, I simply couldn’t understand why I can’t love anyone else as much as I do towards my family. I did try it on my previous relationship with Nurul Aishah, but it didn’t work out as smooth as I’d thought it would be… There’s always something like a barrier that blocked me from loving someone as much as I could possibly give. But yeah, at least I tried. Maybe Allah have a better plan for me as He stopped me from giving myself 100% to anyone while I’m not ready...

For now, most of the girls that I met ever since I moved to the hostel, I’d assume they’re just like my little sister. Most of them even sebaya with my two little princesses. I tend to treasure friendship and the bond that build up as a family more than having the tendency from loving them as a special partner. You name it, all of them, I have no intention to pikat them or treat them as girlfriend. It’s more like a brother and sister relationship. But I hope none of them misled my intention since they might think that I’m flirting and trying to hit on them…

Some of the girls would love to hear this, assuming that perhaps I expect too much from a girl to be my girlfriend… No. Basically I don’t. I prefer simple girl with a simple life. She doesn’t have to be a supermodel or extraordinary slim, or having a beautiful glowing skin and blue eyes, or anything close to that… She doesn’t have to try too hard on anything. Laid-back, that’s the word. I just need a simple girl… Yeah, Malay, or Chinese or a Russian girl with a decent attitude and a broad minded thinking would do that… I’m not sure if that’s too much to ask… And one more thing, I’m a 100% monogamous type of guy… ***hahaha… I don’t know what monogamous has to do with all this, but I feel like to write them down***

Perhaps I should avoid from writing anything about relationship for now… Maybe I’m not ready to settle down with a stable girlfriend yet... For now, I really am, enjoying my bujang life to the max… As if the world is mine and I could share it with everyone else…

Mohd Fairuz Anuar
Moscow